Vintagee love;

Friday, December 24, 2010 Y 6:52 PM

guess i havent ended tat earlier story bout tat girl tat i used to know

well, few days ago, i decided to call it off..

cos i jus cant take it..

despite more matured n smart, she s jus too 'dependant' on me..

expects me to call her every nite n stuff, then keep sayin i dont care for her, n her level of jealousy is beyond madness..

n she doesnt like me to club... ok tats too much honey..

i jus know u like few wks, n u haf so many rules n regulations n restrictions..

i cant take it.. tats it.. no matter how hot u are, model n smart n rich.. but no way man.. i dont feel happy wit u baby..

thanks for the company so far..n sorry to hurt u..

despite u sayin "cant believe u can let me go tat easily"..

well, guess tats me, learnt frm the past, learnt to let go of things n move on i guess..

hahas but oni one true person i m still tryin to let go..

u know who u are..

oh wells, guess im fine w/t a girl for now.. dont c a need for it now..

guess im so focused in landing my first job now rather then gettin a girl..

wish me luck then!

-kw n ivan: thanks for being a loyal reader on tis sad sad pathetic place! ;)

Tuesday, December 21, 2010 Y 2:14 AM

sigh...

so the results of SPF SO application is out..

jus last wed i went for the interview.. n today i got the news... REJECTED!!!

SERIOUSLY WTF/!??!?

i relle think i did well for all the paper test...

round 2 is gonna b the interview, n im ALWAYS short of tat round! ive always wanted to speak to panel of interviewers to prove myself worthy..

i was twice denied tat same chance back when i was in the final 5 to b selected for the NS Police officer cadet course...

ALSO denied for an interview when i applied for NIE teaching position..

KNN CCB!!!

seriously, i teared as i read the email over n over again...

its like, its been my long life dream, childhood dreams of becoming a police officer!!!

knn ccb!!!

so many ple ard me put on high hopes on me, hoping ill get tat position..

sorry to dissapoint u guys..n dissapoint myself as well...

sigh.. it felt like my future jus became pitch black..

cos i relle do not know wat i want to do animore...

its like, if its not tis, aniting other then tis means i ve no passion in it AT ALL!!

sigh.. like they say, u cant relle choose a job tat u like, u jus hafta pick something tat might jus b enuff to feed u n ur family..

sigh.. knn ccb! im so sure i m more capable then some officers out there! ccb!

sigh... jus not my luck..

HOWEVER, i believe god has greater plans for me..

i am THIS close to migrating right now actually! -to australia-

sigh.. god, pls show me my next path of life... insyallah i will be ok! :)

Saturday, December 11, 2010 Y 1:24 AM

saturday, 11dec, 1.24am..

somehow it feels weird nt callin her tonite.. sigh..

i missed her voice...

hope ure doin fine..